Juice Fast Progress

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Day 5: Challenges appear.

Driving to Healdsburg last night, at around 9:30pm, is when the first of the freakishly intense hunger pangs hit.  They weren't so much a feeling of emptiness in the stomach as it was an intense psychological compulsion to get a steak. It was not, "man, I'd love a steak right now". It was, "YOU MUST FIND A STEAK RIGHT NOW OR YOU ARE GOING TO DIE.".  I did not succumb to the temptation, and I'm proud of that - I did have a few slices of cucumber and a carrot in Healdsburg, though.

The main thing that has me freaked out is that I don't know how to objectively reassure myself that I'm not actually hurting my body.  I feel alert, but I also feel very weak and this cough has lingered. I'm coughing up a lot of infected, gross, thick phlegm. I doubt that this cough was entirely caused by fasting, though I feel like I'm lacking something that I might need to combat it.

I've been doing this for long enough now that it doesn't feel novel to my body. Since the last 5 days have definitely felt longer than 5 days, there's less thinking about how many more days I have to go.

On the upside, I was around a fair amount of debauchery, chemical and otherwise, last night, and I did not feel any desire to participate. That's something of a new thing for me, actually - I often abstain from indulgences, but when I do so, it is an act of will to overcome the desire for participation and immediate gratification. This was different - I could imagine what it would feel like to be drunk, or various kinds of stoned, and I just really didn't want to feel that.  I'm glad I got to experience that.  I also laid down a fantastic Electro set kinda out of the blue, so... go go gadget new alertness.


Stacy Bissell said...

I've been dancing in my chair just thinking about your set all morning! xo

taisuke said...

dude, you hurt your body every time you have a steak

Mary E said...

This is awesome!!!
I am thrilled and inspired by you!